25 years....

I have known I have wanted to write this post for a long time, I just wasn't sure exactly how to do it... Its hard to believe that my mom has been gone for 25 years now.  How time flies...

I still think back to that day and the days surrounding it. I also think back to the wonderful memories I created with my mom. She really was an amazing person, her smile could light up any room, her laughter filled hearts with joy, and she had the fight of a tiger.  There are times I see parts of her in me and other times I wish I had more of her traits! Luckily, I have my memories of her and my parents who tell me stories of how she was and funny things she would do.  In addition, I have my sister Annie, who has my moms physical stature and who has her "fight of a tiger" which is the trait I wish I had more of! :)

Memories I hold near and dear include, going for drives, whippin cookies behind the elevator, driving our big orange boat of a car (which reminds me of the head injury!),   going to the Chuckwagon for malts and supper then walking to "Hum and Canners", watching the brady bunch together, the mice in the trailer (YUCK!!!), hiding my eggs, stealing frosting off of the carmel rolls, riding my snowmobile, and of course the "Don't cry over spilled milk-dead cat" incident, ask me sometime and I will tell you! :)

One thing that my mom did that I will always treasure was that even though I got a million spankings (maybe not quite that many-but a few and I deserved each and everyone!!!) I always knew she was my best friend and I was hers.  We have a couple cassette tapes from our last Christmas' with her, and its so nice to hear her infectious laugh! She was a riot! Speaking of that...I need to hear those tapes again! Being pregnant I am sure I would get a good cry out of hearing them!

So 25 years have passed and it seems the more BIG events I have in my life, the more I wish she was here to share them with me. I know she is watching over me and caring for peanut.  I am blessed to know she was the first one to get to meet him! :)  I don't mention this alot but I do look to her for advice from time to time and I also talk "to" her on occasion.  She lived a short and tough life, but I was also a full life.  We can all aim for that!

I am not saying my mom was always the perfect mom, but really what parent is perfect? I was able to enjoy her for 6 years of my life, and since she was such a young mom we learned a lot together! She was only 16 when she had me and only 23 when she passed. A life truly short lived, but lived to the fullest! :)

I am proud to be her daughter and probably her greatest accomplishment! May her legacy live on in me forever and I do my best to display her sunshine to all! :) Thank you for reading....it wasn't my easiest writing thats for sure.

And I have learned one thing for sure...you never really get over someone who has passed, and it doesn't get easier, you just learn how to live without them......trust me on this one.  I have lost quite a few people who were close to me.